Wow, let’s just get straight to the deep questions. No fear. It has taken my not 1, not 2, but 16 years to accept who I am and my blindness. Over the years it has been quite the journey of ups and downs. I am not that super happy person that is going to tell you “You know I am just so content and happy, blindness never negatively affects me” because that is so far from the truth. Yes, the reality is that I try to be happy and positive about it, but sadness gets to the best of us. The whole point of this blog is to show you guys (my sighted friends) the reality of being blind. The good times, the bad times and everything in between. So, I am not going to lie and say I am so happy and always positive because I think it is unfair you my loyal followers.
I would say that now since I am 17 years of age and almost a grown adult, I am feeling pretty good about. I have fully accepted the fact that my blindness is not going to change. There will be no magical fairytale ending where a great new surgery is invented, and that is ok. I know sometimes it may seem like I complain constantly, which is true sometimes, but most days I try to look at the positives in a situation before looking at all the negatives. For example, if we are talking about positives here, I am not paralyzed or fed through a tube, I am just blind. That is so much better than so many people have it.
The reality is, I am legally blind. Being blind is definitely a challenge because of the overflow of questions and negative comments, but somehow I make it work. I try everyday to make that day the best day it can be. I used to never use my equipment because if I used it I was not “normal” What even is normal? We let society define what being “normal” is and they put a label on it. I am the first one to admit that I am the farthest thing from “normal”. My eyes are not “normal”. But, if we are going to talk about goals here, I think being “normal” is boring. I would rather be unque and have people remember me for being the girl who spoke up, who used the “giant white stick” instead of the girl who just wore the Forever 21 skirt and the crop top.
Yes, blindness is hard, but like most things in life it is not impossible. When society looks at someone who is blind or has any disability, they like to label them. They put a label on their life and automatically think they know what we are able to do and accomplish. I am here to tell anyone who is blind or disabled that you should not be defined by your disability. Embrace what you have and be the person that changes another persons life. Do not be normal. Everyone is normal, it gets boring after a while.
I have learned with the help of my family and friends that being blind is not the worst thing in the world and if I embrace it, I was put on this earth to teach, inspire and educate people about blindness and the power of God. I hope that you all have someone that inspires yout to work harder, love more, and live happier. I know I sure have those people in my life and without them I would not be the person I am today writing this blog. I would be another girl trying to confine to what society thinks is “normal”. So, yes, I am blind, and I am proud of it. I will wear blindness on my sleeve until I die and I will advocate for those who can not advoate for themsleves.
As always, thank you guys so much for viewing my blog. Remember to comment any questions or comments you have about my blindness below. I enjoy turning your questions into blog posts that are both entertaining and inspiring. This post was brought to you by my friend Baiyen who asked how I really felt about living with blindness.